It is that time of the year here in the northwoods. The snow keeps coming and fears of an impending ice age roll around in my head. Don't get me wrong, I believe in global warming; it is just that I allow the irrational fear of an eternal winter to capture my imagination.
I enjoy winter and spend time enjoying it by cross country skiing and snowshoeing. I find delight in snow storms and find great pleasure in trekking in the woods braving high winds and pelting snow. It is just that I look a my motorcycle parked in the garage knowing that I have done all the necessary maintenance for the next riding season.
The motorcycle commercials that continue to run on television don't bother me. I really cannot identify with the guy riding the bike. In our area they are Harley Davidson commercials. I am a Honda guy who is not looking to live a legend, leave a legacy for my children, or looking to escape the demands of my boss and ride to Alaska with my biker buddies.
I don't want winter to end next week. I still want to enjoy this northwood's winter. The reality is that I am conflicted. You may have notice that photos of me belie this fact. I am a conflicted person, when it comes to all of life. Allow me to clarify this point. Most people who know me would describe me as very stable but crazy. I can be counted on regarding following through on promises and commitments. I usually am level headed and able to handle problems in a rational manner. People see me as predictable and stable, but in the next breath many will say I am crazy.
There in lies the conflict. I am certain that my personality quirk could be explained easily by a psychiatrist. Maybe they would say that my ego is over worked because my id and superego are prone to flare ups. The poor ego has a difficult job finding middle ground that is acceptable in my social environment.
There is a simple solution to my seasonal dilemma that I am unwilling to act upon at this time; I need to move. If I moved to Olympia Washington I would be able to ride 353 days a year and still get all the winter sports I love. The truth is I like be conflicted, because I'm crazy.
